Follow up from last night

Great expectations usually lead to a major disappointments.

Wisdom

Getting my wisdom tooth coming out. I'm very flattered, but do I deserve it?

Craig's list

"We know exactly what we are looking for so if you do not meet all of these requirements please do not apply"
Absurd. "We know exactly what we a re looking for" "do not apply".

I have no words to express my gratitude to my friends.
One of the biggest advantages in this country is meeting all of this wonderful and amazing people as I know. I'm so grateful to call you all my friends .

Digging into the past is so time/effort taking and, most important, so inefficient!

Never felt so undesired in my life. It's motivating though

03/ 08/ 2011

I'm tired of men putting their crotch right in my face in a crowded train, while i"m sitting down.

March, 11 I and people

1) I don't know what's worse : when there's no water of any kind or when there's no internet connection.
My roommate: "First is just as equally bad as the second : to watch a porn and not be able to wash hands afterwords ... " .

2) This is truly ridiculous. I asked a Mexican - American guy at an organic deli if they make quesadillas , and he got offended. His answer was "this is not a Mexican deli, don't you see" . While i was shopping , he kept on discussing it with his Hispanic co-workers in Spanish. He was visible furious. Don't understand, why is it insulting? Vegetable quesadillas has long become part of new York City culture.

3)On an overcrowded Manhattan train at a rush hour, when people ALWAYS push their way through each other (even when there isn't a way through) to get a seat to my biggest astonishment I've found myself, almost the only seated person in a car, sitting down and gazing around the folks that "stuffed" the train the way that their eye lashes practically touch. But nobody would give in and pick a place. New Yorkers are too proud for that.

01.19.2011

Around 6 pm I was on a train on my way to Soho thinking of what story could i possibly create in order to "immortalize" this random day ...

Just a few hours later we found ourselves in a strip club, and two of my girl friends have "lost" their bras right there not without help of a "professional " hands. Later I "carried" one of those bras to Downtown bar as a pilot helmet tied up right under the chin, as supposed to.

The word of the day is RAUNCHY. What a wonderful and definite description of a lot of sights, thoughts and activities. "Raunchy" is so adopted to my every - day vocabulary!

Let me see your papers.

Girls night out turned out pretty violently.
My innocent and slightly flirtatious joke with by walking - in inside of a bar two dudes "Can I see your IDs?" was met with an aggression "Can I see your papers? Oh, what, not funny anymore?" followed by a whole tirade about "fucking" immigrants and "I know who to call" ... My jaw practically felt down in amusement.
Speaking of immigrants, that the whole America is built on, especially New York... Errr.... guys? We are not even talking about manners.
Later we concluded, that was probably a bizarre "Connecticut" pick - up line...
In my memory, this is the first time within 5 years on the territory of this country, when I was verbally sent back to my country with every possible profanity known ... and by a guy.

Naked Music NYC - If I Fall (Jay's Naked Spirits Mix)

Vivat Technologies!

My ex - lover sent me a text saying that he wanted to make it an official end and he was moving on in life, therefore he deleted me from Facebook....
Um, I have dual feelings: on the one side I feel insulted, we could've stayed friends or don't i at least deserve a normal conversation or text? On the other hand, am I behind technologies and should move on myself? The necessity of having an uncomfortable conversation gets old, and a lot easier to solve things through the social network?

If you don't do anything, It's on you. If you succeed, It's because of you.

Gay New York.

New York is a Gay city. That's official. Those that are not gays are gays in a closet and sooner or later will come out ... .
Brings me back to July, 14 2007. The first day I've moved form Florida to New York and my best friend took me for a walk in Mid Town. Despite my deep cleavage I was left unnoticed walking alone side with my guy friend. At the same time the looks his had been getting from every single male passing by made him say in amusement that he never thought he would become a competitor to me (!!!) in a love field.

2011....

Well, I guess, my secret New Year's resolution has started to work from the very first week, when all of my "useless connections" were found left behind in 2010. Despite the fact, that all of the "connections" actually left me behind, the goal was achieved, the matter is everything, details are not important.

The Timewriter - So much Pain Inside (Terry Lee Brown Junior

Love my 24

Happened to be in company of youngsters 2-4 years junior. Was given a comment by an 18-en year- old that apparently he likes me. Literally: "I like you, you are OK, pretty". I burst out laughing cause I knew exactly that I was expected to blurt out Thank you and probably to blush. And following second I was "reassured" that it was a compliment. As for me, I only managed to thumbs up and held back my laughter.
I thought of lecturing those kids on a subject of compliment....
What defines a compliment? Compliment is a fact that compliments You. And there I thought how does the fact that some 18-en year old spoiled boy compliment me by saying "I like you, you're ok". Hahaha . Really? Absurd and nonsense.
I guess, if you are a casting director, you can "I like you" and give me a part in a movie. But when you are 18-en, and I'm nearly 24 .... Who are you again? You like me? You don't? Oh... What was your name again, boy?
I just realized how much I enjoy my age. For the first time in my life I actually feel free, confident , sort of experienced and I love this feeling. There are no more silly complexes, no more over reacting thoughts and acts. There it comes: I finally start living my life!
PS As I thought of giving a lecture about how to make a compliment It occurred to me, that I will not be understood until they reach my age and let go some of the selfishness that is so typical for teenagers. So I would've probably increased our age - gap in 10 years in their consciousness If i actually opened up my mouth.
All in good time , as Englishmen say.